虚無 (Kyomu) – Nothingness
from Empty MERMAiD single.
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I’ve been hesitating all this while, but
My heart wavers with each touch, “love” is so ridiculous
Every time the number of experiences increase
I regret, thinking “it shouldn’t have been like this”, but it stains and becomes me
This fragile reality I knew through abandoning all
We touch, we overlap
But the only one I trust is myself
At the corner of the path I follow, I do the folk dance with someone tonight
In this blurred, lost city, I hum the song of loneliness
It doesn’t match, that too-pretty name my mother left to me that I’d forgotten
With no place to return to, I’m fine with being alone
Fixing my tied-up hair
With a sweet voice and wagging tail, I invite a “time waster”
In this night, when one more lie accumulates
I down the awareness and of sin and retorts like a cocktail
Plans of the future which we were all equally born with
I hate them, I hate them
Because I can only be myself
Drenched in thunderstorms, surrounded by exhaust, I’ve found my stance
The dripping raindrops mix gently with tears
Even if I disappear now, I’m sure nobody will notice
We’ll all be alone someday, so I’ll just go with it
This period of tragedy repeated countless times
Slowly, my heart cracked
The scattered fragments, yes, to protect them, even getting hurt doesn’t hurt anymore
Nobody is allowed to come into my territory again
At the corner of the path I follow, a passing folk dance
Turning my back on the too-bright sun, I walk on again today
Even if a prince comes for me someday with glass slippers
Unfortunately, it’s too late, I’m already fine with being alone
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