A-Dancer Subaru’s decision to leave A Troupe

A blog entry from A-Dancer Subaru’s blog, talking about him leaving A Troupe.

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Past and Future
Written 9 May 2011

So many messages and comments.

Thank you so much for them.

I’m really glad to be receiving emotions and thoughts from everyone.

I really feel very sorry

to be late in saying the things I need to say,

such as making the announcement, and giving replies.

And while I’m sure there are many who know this already,

I will not be taking part in this year’s tour as Dancer Subaru.

This decision was made early last month, but because it concerns the performance, we couldn’t talk about it openly.

Therefore, I had to keep this to myself until the first 2 days of the tour are over.

I’m really sorry if the people who had been expecting me were left disappointed and discouraged.

And even though I can’t write about it in too much detail, I’d like to give a small account of everything that happened and how I am now.

Yes. I shall stop writing formally and return to my usual style.

I understand how troupe leader feels about changing her show and hence recasting all of us, to “put the right people in the right place”, so to speak.

Of course, she didn’t say those “unspeakable” words like “you should stop”, or “you should go”!

It’s just that, for this show, there is just no need for a character like Subaru,

I myself admit that it’s true. That’s all.

Of course, my feelings about wanting to stand on stage hasn’t changed, and even now, I spend my days feeling the same way,

but what is most important is that the show troupe leader wants can be realized. That is our foremost concern as creators of this show.

Thus, I never felt that I couldn’t accept this decision that she had made,

even though I know that many people support me, and were waiting to see me. I say “it can’t be helped”, but I was honestly hurt by the thought of it.

However, I am not the only one who had to make a painful decision.

Thinking about troupe leader, who must make these decisions as well,

I feel that it’s not my place to feel depressed or short-changed.

“This is just part of her wish. I still have my own role to play.”

Thinking that, I am living through my days.

Until the time when I am needed again, I will spend my time recharging and growing!

This is my realization.

That’s why, I am in an optimistic mood,

living my life and challenging myself with training,

with time and my surroundings as my ultimate limit!

My motto now is to “hope, and to answer to hope!”

I will do my best to grow. Yes.

Yesterday night, I received mails from many members

telling me that the first 2 days had ended successfully, and I felt a sense of relief.

I felt that “yes, they are definitely still holding together~!”.

From where I am,

doing what I can, I will walk on with everyone.

Unless I’m really needed elsewhere, I won’t be going away.

If there is a need for me sometime, I will answer with all my might.

Because there will be a need for me sometime, I will work hard now.

Subaru here will continue to

hope, and answer to your hopes!

The journey has just begun.

From where we are now, let’s all aim for “that place”.

A-Dancer 2-YAN’s decision to leave A Troupe

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Announcement.
Written 8 May 2011

I’ve received so many comments via Twitter and this blog about this tour.

Firstly, I’m really sorry
for being late in announcing that I won’t be taking part in this tour…

But so as not to

create any spoilers for the performance,

I couldn’t talk about this until after the show has been performed.

I apologize to those who were expecting to see me there.

I’ll be thankful if you can understand me.

When I made the decision not to take part,

every member,

and definitely myself too, cried.

And for a few days, I couldn’t believe that this was reality,

but as time went by,

I saw many things,

and questions like “what do I need to do now?”

“What should I do?” were answered.

I clearly see now what I couldn’t see then,

and though I feel lonely,

I will turn that all into optimism!!

Of course, I want to improve on my own technique.

I want to show everyone

dreams and energy through dance.

I want to tell everyone about the joy and fun of J-Pop.

And many more.

There is something called the “troupe”,

and I am of course a part of that troupe.

The performance concept and shows will change every time, every year!

And thus, ,members of the troupe will definitely change too.

That is what I believe.

Ah! Of course, I will be participating in this tour as an audience member (laugh)

Which date shall I go for~

That’s a secret (laugh)

I may have been there at that opening show (laugh)

That’s why, I haven’t graduated.

If troupe leader ayu

needs me in a future concert’s concept,

I will definitely take part!!

I’ve said this before,

but the troupe’s show has an appeal

that no other performance can match!

That’s definite.

And though I don’t know when that day will come,

I will be looking forward to seeing everyone again

as I stand on stage!!

So do look forward to seeing

A powered-up me (laugh)

A-Dancer Kayanocchi’s decision to leave A Troupe

A couple of blog entries from A-Dancer Kayanocchi’s blog, talking about her leaving A Troupe.

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Grateful feeling
Written 7 May 2011

Everyone, did you have a good time?

I’m well

Sorry for not blogging for so long.

But I’ve read every single comment, question and message sent in to me

As to this blog being able to receive so many readers, please let me tell of my grateful feelings.

Without doubt, today is the day when AYU-chan’s live tour will begin in Hiroshima, and I have decided not to take part in it.

If there were any people who were waiting to see me, I’m really terribly sorry.

I want to apologize from the bottom of my heart.

From the very first tour, I performed for everyone in every show for 11 years.

To me, this is just

A miracle.

I can call it nothing else.

And then,

I’m

thankful.

If things hadn’t happened the way they did,

I probably won’t be writing this blog.

I am now praying

for troupe leader’s opening show to be a success.

I believe that someday,

I will definitely meet with everyone again.

And at that time,

let us greet each other

With smiles.    

Thank you.

I will continue

to keep this blog updated.

And then,

I will move forward

into the future,

honestly,

like a human,

just like how I’ve always been.

kayano

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Messages
Written 9 May 2011

AYU-chan’s live today

Day 2 at Hiroshima

has ended

successfully.

And I’ve like to say

Thank You

to the 200+ people who have sent in messages for me

since my last entry.

I was really stunned.

Everyone was talking about being lonely,

being sad.

I received so many messages like that.

Honestly,

for me,

I have no reason to feel lonely,

or to feel sad.

But,

there are some things in life

that one cannot change.

Just what have I achieved these 11 years?

I don’t really know myself,

but when I read everyone’s messages, I had a small realization.

And as for the answer to that question,

it will surely come to me

sometime in the future.

And on days like today, when it feels like time is passing too slowly,

I wonder if I would want

to stop time,

or to go back to the past.

Just to confirm,

that the person I am now exists,

and the person I will be in the future exists too.

Thank you so much

ayu Tweets 11/5/2011~12/5/2011

ohsixthirty: (…)
BuWJ111: wOmp wOmp
ayu_19980408: I just dont want to people bugging u guys.

daichi1127: Long time no see, Mika John!
ayu_19980408: Why didn’t you guys tell me you were going ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ=3=3=3

ayu_19980408: Yes~, today’s pressure training was a breeze~ ♪ Tomorrow will be vocal training~ ♪ My goals are set on every weekend!! How I spend the days in between will determine the outcome of my weekend battles (← my own).

ayu_19980408: Ah! Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ I just realized that with a start a moment ago that this lifestyle will not end till autumn comes. Gahh! That’s wonderful! That means I’ll have lots of chances to level up!! I won’t lose ☆ Right?

ayu_19980408: Posted a new TA entry☆—>[Do not think]
AyumiJae_TVXQ: is it English version ayu ♡？
ayu_19980408: Yes,It’s English ver;)

ayu_19980408: JUN-kun, happy birthday!! Please somehow continue walking down the path that only JUN-kun can walk, and show that sometimes cool, sometimes uncool, but always human back to all those juniors ☆ I love you– (*^^*)

mina_zo_mina_zo: POWER of MUSIC Blog is updated!! Who is blogging this time?? →→【PC】 http://bit.ly/hjplLW 【MOBILE】 http://t.co/iArUSp7
ayu_19980408: RT

gigipan: I don’t know why it always comes to my mind that if @Mannie69 was a singer, he would be like @chriscornell. xDDDDDD
ayu_19980408: LOL

miiichan1224: ayuuuu! Is it true that you’ll be spending 1 billion yen to debut a pachinko unit in Korea? I’ve heard rumours…
ayu_19980408: RT

ayu_19980408: You can check it with the company. 2 years ago, around the time of NL tour, Kishidan’s Sho-kun, Shuccha, the other dancers and I filmed a large-scale CG movie kinda thing, using my songs as a soundtrack. Seems as if that will be used as a scene in a pachinko unit— ☆ As for that 1 billion yen and Korea rumour, it has nothing to do with myself or avex, so I’m not sure—
luv0408ayuchann: Really? They even made wine to commemorate it. That has nothing to do with ayu-chan?
ayu_19980408: That’s their own company’s commemoration wine, how does that link to me? This is the first I’ve heard of this. (laugh)

keisui_: After ayu-chan’s editting and supervision, the pachinko unit will debut on 3 July~ Is that true?
ayu_19980408: I’ve never played pachinko in my life, so how am I to supervise… Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ

maip0915: So will ayu’s pachinko debut in July in Japan too!? (￣◇￣) I see some auctions selling promotion goods (￣◇￣;)
ayu_19980408: Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ What goods!

kurumi_19880416: An invitation to meeting Hamasaki Ayumi in person… Please look at this and tell me if it’s real.
ayu_19980408: Huh?! Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ… I’ve never seen that before. (laugh)

godblesskaku: What rumour about Korea..?
ayu_19980408: They wrote Korea in their tweet, I was wondering why myself too.

haruayu19980408: You’ll report to us again when there are more details? (*^^*)
ayu_19980408: avex and I won’t have any updates, but that company will probably make some announcements! So please wait for that (*^^*)

kobibouya: So they are using it without permission?
ayu_19980408: No no! We filmed a CG movie using my songs as a soundtrack.

s_saorinring: If it debuts in Japan too, I’d love to spot any differences (*^_^*)
ayu_19980408: That movie was really very large-scale– ☆ Shu became like a prince in some shojou manga!

kana_xxx2002ayu: Ehhhhhhh!!!!!!!! What is this! Seems so interesting! I’d love to watch it, but is it only available on the pachinko unit?? (´･_･`)
ayu_19980408: I don’t know how? But everyone even had their own script and everything, we really went all out ☆

nagoya_kotomi: Eh? How was the exhibition?
Microphone_ayu: I think it was just a rumour– ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ=3=3=3
ayu_19980408: What exhibition?

htm17: Totally self-produced. With wine. And other stuff.
ayu_19980408: Huh? Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ I don’t understand at all! What is this (>_<) I’ll ask Daddy Pei later. What’s happening? （ ; ; ）

kayo_19980408: Thank you for informing all of us, we were all confused. (*^^*) Even though ayu-chan seems a little confused herself ♡ (laugh) ♡
ayu_19980408: Eh, true. (laugh)

asuka65: This is the wine (๑╹w╹๑)  Seems like a novelty item to go with the commemoration of the new pachinko unit.
ayu_19980408: What is that! I want it. (laugh) Someone send me the bottle after they’ve finished drinking it. (laugh)

kayamatch: It’s rare to see something with Hamasaki Ayumi’s name on it, but that it was filmed without her knowledge at all (´･_･`)
ayu_19980408: No no. Any filming that was done had the understanding of all the actors present ☆ We even had a script (^_−)−☆

atarusa: To have wine produced without ayu herself knowing anything, this is so interesting (>_<) (laugh)
ayu_19980408: Well, these incident aren’t uncommon.

kayanopullove2: Are you still not looking at the set?
ayu_19980408: What set? @(・●・)@ Or a question? Masai?? (￣▽￣)

Yocchan__ayu: ?? So you really don’t know anything (T_T) Is it alright for them to use your image?
ayu_19980408: As long as my company knows about it, it’s OK, right? They don’t need to report these things to me, definitely ☆

ayu_romipan: Why is ayu releasing a pachinko unit when we’re all supposed to be conserving electricity?
ayu_19980408: I don’t know when the pachinko unit will debut. The one who is debuting the machine is the pachinko company, not myself or avex!!!

ayumin17556: So the recent CM shooting you did was for the pachinko? There’s been rumours ヽ(；▽；)ノ
ayu_19980408: I’ve already said we filmed that 2 years ago (￣▽￣) The recent CM was for a completely new something ♪

sax3yu: All these is really un-understandable for me ヽ(；▽；)ノ So the CG you filmed long ago was intended for pachinko?
ayu_19980408: Yes. That CG movie is something you won’t be able to see outside of a pachinko TV screen (they have one, right?) ☆

kmlovety: But ayu tells us whenever you release a CD…
ayu_19980408: Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ But that is a product by Hamasaki Ayumi. I made it myself. However, this pachinko unit is not my product, and avex is also not the one releasing it.

donatsuki: Why do you say that you don’t know anything, and it doesn’t concern you?? Didn’t you sing at that exhibition? When the Koda Kumi pachinko was released, Kuu-chan sang! If the artiste doesn’t sing, the unit won’t sell.
ayu_19980408: Singing at an exhibition? Huh? ^^; I did no such thing.

ayukiTA1978106: I can imagine ayu-chan making a pachinko unit– (laugh)
ayu_19980408: I’ve graduated from analog ☆

donatsuki: ayu is more precious to me than anyone else. I didn’t want ayu to release a pachinko unit. That’s all.
ayu_19980408: I don’t understand, but is pachinko really that bad a game? （ ; ; ） Why? （ ; ; ）

TeamAyuppe: So ayu-chan is really releasing a pachinko unit… Pachinko machines use up lots of electricity~!! ayu-chan (;_;)
ayu_19980408: Really! But there is nothing I can do about it （ ; ; ）

cherries93_1113: This donatsuki person is really an insult to ayu fans. Stubborn, weird, and has a small heart… What does ayu think?
ayu_19980408: Everyone, please stop this already! Ok? Please? (>_<)

leeo0x0olee: Just concentrate on your tour for now (^ε-)☆ Your head must be hurting
ayu_19980408: Yes ( T_T)＼(^-^ )

yuzumama94: Let’s create a chain of ayu-chaaaaaaan’s smiles——- ♪  (smile) ☆*;｡.o（≧∀≦）o.｡;*☆
ayu_19980408: OK–! (smile) (*^_^*)
mother_Asa_: Yes yes, moreeee ＼(^o^)／
eriaya_ERI: More!
ayu_19980408: (grin) (￣▽￣)♡